I'm so pissed off with been walked all over all the time. Been told who I can and cannot talk to, or what I can say to them. I am my own person and if people don't like it they can take a hike. I'm sick of trying to please people and getting nowt in return. Im not going to change for anyone especially him im so pissed off right now

Just got back from Bendiorm it was scorching all week well apart from wenzdi where they had a little tidal wave that like kinda went all in the shops on the front! Oooops. Plane wasn't that bad going was really bad turbulence(throwing you out ur seat kinda turbulence and I aint joking!) Went to see that sticky vicky and all I can say is HAHA :o) good times. Went to this German bar and Ad's didnt even realise that is was! Got well pissed on their beer and was dancing with em all, then skipped all the way back singing heads shoulders knees and toes (hmm Good times, poor Ad's)..Altho my mums not best pleased with Adam cos we had an argument and he left me in Benidorm by myself and this man followed me then starting grabbing me so I ran all way back. So my mums well kinda pissed off with him Oooops altho I've told her it was my fault too she was having none of it so eeeep!

Still working at Mozza's and still hating it but at end of day its a job, You get paid and blah its better now having Chris as my manager as he lets you have days off you want to and I don't work lates yippee :o)

Going away again but next year, Paris, New York and Turkey, not sure about last one, but at end of day its a holiday. Paris is week after my birthday which will also be our one year :oD, June is Turkey and then New York November, for x-mas shopping with my mummy :oD. I want to go Ice skating in Time's square so Im working on her for that yay. I'm spoilt hehehe

Sad news too, one of my old school friends died on 2nd of October, death's not nice anyways but when their 18 years old its a bit hard to bear with. So that's two people from my year whose died. Bit shit really!

Anyways Im gonna dash now mwah mwah Xxx

I'm well bored! I was meant to be going out tonight with Jenna, But due to lack of money and spending it on rubbish I can only go art(art) on Saturday :o( Sooooo instead I'm seeing Jenna on friday hopefully (fingers crossed!)

Me and Ad's are getting on at the moment *touch wood* Go on hols in two months wayhey. I'm wanting to do something special for my birthday, but no doubt it will be really cold and we wont want to do anything except stay in :o(. And yesh I know its ages away but I wanna do something instead of getting blinding drunk like the last birthdays with the exception of my 18th for obvious reasons lol. I'm already starting his present and his is in May :o( lmao.

In other news Marc has started to contact me again, what a loser! He was like "I saw you a few weeks ago, in pub with your boyfriend, I think...was he your boyfriend?" So yeah he's obviously trying to break the ice and talk again, but is it nasty for me to not want to talk to him?? He also asked for my number?? I haven't spoke to him properly since like New Years Eve when I saw him. So what could we possibly talk about, we have nothing in common. I'm coming across as a real bitch now aint I lol. But do ya know what I dont really care, he was never a nice person, so I doubt I'd want to talk to a bullying little freak! He kinda ruined my friendships when we were together, and I've rebuilt all the ones that were worth saving, maybe its me been paranoid but I dont wanna lose those friendships again.

Pah....Gonna go shop about online for a bit now, so soon you'll get another pointless and rather crappy post about nothing in particular

Nothing much to update really Jay and I are finally mates again, I can't even remember what we fell out about. But everythings sorted spent the night at his, had a laugh, Just what I needed with all the shite that's been happening really. Thankyou Jay Xxx.

I'm confused about Ad's but what's new I don't even know where we are anymore, and I know it sounds well really awful but I'm getting to the stage where Im sick of caring if ya get me :o(. Maybe it will all blow over I dont know. I don't want us to split up, but how many times have I wrote stuff similar to this in the past couple of months....alot. Oh I dunno. It's bollocks. I'm excited about Benidorm but then again I'm not, He says he's not happy when we argue, does he think I am, Nopes am not seen as I sometimes cant take it and just break down. Is this what love is??? Where you can't bear to be apart but you sometimes NEED a day off from each other, nopes I didnt think so either its more like an obsession, but the obsession is getting less and less like it. I don't even know what I'm talking about tbh.

I NEED a new Job I know I'm been picky, but no jobs have jumped up and bit me yet, and the ones that have are no good because its for people whose been on benefits :o(. Although I'm thinking about going back to college, its once a week and night time on a tuesday so think that will be good seen as I dont work tuesdays really and It will enable me to get a better job with better prospects, I have to pay but so what its piss money.

See ya's soon XXx





"You kick up the leaves, and the magic is lost"

Not updated in a while, not that there's anything to update to be quite honest! Nowt new there. Just been bumming about, went to Sean's barbeque other week and tbh I wished I had never have gone, I got food poisioning which wasn't a nice experience, so i had to like not go to work then Jackie (whom is a big nasty bullying bitch!) Went round and told managers I was just drunk from the night before and couldn't be arsed to come to work as I had already told her previously, WHICH may I add is a complete lie as you can't fake food poisoning silly bitch! Argh gawd I hate her!!!!And hate isn't a word I use alot!
Turned down that Job I got (silly fook that I am) because it was just too far away and I can't manage it :o( IDIOT! Getting moved departments supposedly, but fuck that I wanna leave I just haven't found a job yet!

So today went into tarn with him and went for Stace's present which led to a big argument over nothing really and I admit I started it :o(. But then Poof It all blew over! Like ya hair Chris looks good! Dunno if you read this but If ya do it looks good :oD

Booked my holidays for definate now going 15th October to Benidorm should still be hot so now I can waffle on about that for weeks on end, then when we come back can bang on about xmas hahahah I should really get a life, anyways im gonna trot off. so tooodles
Xxxx

SO I have a new layout yay, other one was boring me cos it was so plain anywho, Just needs a bit of a twiddle, so it fits and I reckon it shall be fine :o)Thankyoooooooooou

ShoOoOOooOooeeeeeeees!

Jay - Sorry I can't make next week only found out last night that she's changed my hours again, good job I'm leaving :oD hehehehehe. Wrote my resignation letter today. You proud Jay? huh huh huh?. Two years too late if you ask me mwhahahaha :o) My other Job is times I get to choose and I'm going for 9-5 woopah and sunday's off yeeeeeeesssssshhhhh! Saturday night boozing time! Oh how I've missed it hehehe.
Gonna have to arrange to meet Jen aint seen her for ages like her birthday last time and that was ages ago, missing her loads. What else ermmmmmmmm I like shoes :oP.
The pill is the evilest thing in the world I have decided after all this time of been on it gar! But NO babies so I'm going to continue to use it :o(
Oh no it's father's day on Sunday and I still haven't got him anything much as my Dad and I don't get on I feel I ought to get him something seen as I forgot his Birthday. I'm such a shit head! I think Ad's is taking me shopping but I doubt he will so I might have to use you Jay if that's ok lol, pay back for other day ;o)
Other news my aunties really ILL and I cant stop crying she's the nicest woman you will ever meet, never a bad word to say about anyone and I'm not just saying that because she's my auntie I'm saying it because its true. It's true though bad things happen to good people! and d'ya know what it sucks!!!!


Oh yeah I know people are sick of it but MJ do you think he was guilty.....discuss lol

"Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

What happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending"

So nothing much to update really so it's a waste of time doing this really.....Well I'm alot happier than I have been over the past few months everything seems to be finally getting back on track. Me and Ad's are getting on great we haven't argued in a while which is uber good :oD. Work is a crap thing so moving swiftly on.....

I'm going away soon which is fab although it is in October but still I need a holiday and I'm going to have one even if it is freezing as owt :oP. Me and Ad's are going to Benidorm can wait ffgfggfgfyfygf.

NO babies!!!!

Argh I have nothing interesting to say so Meh I shall go and bugger off elsewhere

( Stolen from Hezza )

 

Well this is my new journal got sick of the old one so tried something new.
Bit boring this post but i dont have anything interesting to write about so catch you later.
So much trouble for one Journal Oh well Chris ull have to show me how to work this damn thing hehehe
Xx